Your testimony matters. To someone. To everyone. Someone, somewhere needs to hear your testimony. Don’t ever stop sharing it.
The LORD is near to the brokenhearted And saves those who are crushed in spirit
*DISCLAIMER: if you are a drinker, a smoker, a broken woman or man, whoever or whatever you are or do I will NEVER judge you, ever. This is MY story, not a writing of judgement and hate*
The photos above were pictures of my life about three years ago.. I spent many nights with alcohol, & sin. I was diagnosed with depression (anyone who knows me now wouldnt believe that), I was sick constantly and battling migraines all the time, I was unmotivated, pushing 270 lbs, doing the bare minimum in life to get by, and my priorities were so out of whack I bearly ever saw my family or siblings.
I was introduced to Herbalife (cue God). I started getting my health in order and felt amazing and slowly started changing my life.. Obviously didn’t cut the drinking but cut down, lost weight, got off meds, and discovered motivation. My husband (fiancé at the time) and I decided we wanted to open a nutrition club, but for some crazy reason we kept getting denied at our Sylvania and Toledo locations (thank you God). We randomly get a call one day that my friend from college parents had a space we could use but it was in Dundee, MI. “What the heck is in Dundee???” I asked Tyler and he responded, “no clue but let’s do it”! We did just that (thanks again God). 21 years of bad decisions and a life of sin BUT I saw a light as we opened our business in this small village of Dundee. I continued to drink and make stupid choices that I don’t think are super important but my life continued on a path where I was still lost but there was a light at the end of the tunnel. Then my husband and I met a couple who came into our nutrition club in this small town of Dundee. This couple laughed with us, got to know us, and spent time with us. A few weeks into our new friendship the husband explained he was a Pastor in the area.
My Faith then: who the heck is God? A fake, imaginary character you all make up in your mind to judge and be nasty to anyone unlike you. Religion is a joke and your God Is a complete figment of your imagination.
Although I felt VERY STRONGLY about my Atheist viewpoint on Religion I decided they were too nice of people to shut out over differences in opinion so we continued to be friends. Eventually they invited me to their church just to try it out, my husband and I talked and decided because he believed it wasn’t fair for me to rule that part of our marriage and we would go.
I couldn’t tell you what Pastor Jeff preached on that week but I remember it made me feel weird. It made me wonder and question my beliefs. I walked out of that church wondering what having Faith truly meant and my life would never be the same. I met with Jeff almost daily as we studied scripture and dove into the Bible.. I immediatly wanted what he had. This secure, strong belief in something that he knew was so real. I wanted the fulfilling life he seemed to lead and the impactful man he was, was the woman I aspired to be. I never stopped asking questions, but I had the hardest time believing what he was teaching and telling me. Here is what you need to know:
I spent 22 years not believing in God and claiming to be an Atheist. I spent 22 years believing in nothing. I spent 22 years disconnected from my creator.
I started attending church because of a RELATIONSHIP God created and I continued to go because of the curiosity he laid on my heart. It was not easy. I spent so many nights crying in bed praying to this God I still couldn’t believe in. I cried out begging for Faith. I cried out pleading with God.. “please Lord, give me Faith and give me a heart and mind to believe in you because I want to but I just can’t”. No matter what I did or what I prayed I still didn’t believe the Bible I was reading and one day, a few months later, sitting in the pews at the Dundee Community Church of the Nazarene God saved my soul. God grabbed ahold of me like no passion or love I had ever felt before in 22 years.
This testimony is MY story. This is what God did in my life. I share this because of my current situation.. I spend days and nights sometimes worried that there is no way God called me into this ministry. There is NO WAY God chose me to preach His word, teach these kids, or be this woman for His people. Then I realize that is Satan still creeping in my life. I remember that it is my testimony that it is proof of His grace and redemption. It is a story just like mine.. One of a broken woman with a broken past saved in Christ, born into a New Creation to change His world and serve His people that inspires others to believe in Him. I don’t share my testimony because I am perfect or complete.. I share my story because I am one of millions. I share this because God didn’t just chose me.. He wants you too. Even you reading this means He is crossing our paths and there is a reason.
Psalm 34:18 — The LORD is near to the brokenhearted And saves those who are crushed in spirit.
The Lord saved me.. He restored my broken pieces & lit a fire in my soul. The Lord is using me and will continue to use me because that’s exactly who he uses. Do not let ANYONE lead you to believe you are beyond repair because the God who created the UNIVERSE wants to reach you, you just have to answer the door. Don’t ever feel unworthy, I promise God created you for so much more. He needs you, are you ready to share your testimony? Are you ready to ask God to meet you? Trust me, he’s already been setting you up for this very moment.
Thank you Lord, for saving me. Thank you for using me even though I am worthless without you. Thank you for loving me, for trusting me with your work no matter where I came from.